Hi there
It is really good that you have sent this letter to me. I'd like to help and support you as best I can. It sounds like things are really difficult for you at home right now. The relationship between your mum and dad is really complicated and unfortunately you are getting caught up in the middle of things. It is important to remember that if at any time you feel unsafe, you can ring 999 and get some help from the police.
It can sometimes be really difficult to talk to adults about how we feel, but have you tried to talk to your mum and dad about how their problems are affecting you? Do you have any friends, or other family members, or maybe even a teacher that you trust at school, that you could talk to about what has been happening at home?
It is important that you do not blame yourself for the problems that your parents are having. They are the adults at home and they are the ones who need to sort out their differences. It is important that you get the support that you need and have a chance to talk more about how things are for you at home.
You could contact ChildLine on 0800 1111 (the calls are free and confidential) or you could talk to a ChildLine counsellor on a 1-2-1 online chat or send them an email. You could also check out the message boards, where you can help and support from other young people who are in similar situations.
Take care,
Sam