Hi there
Thanks for your message. I'm really glad you got in touch because it sounds like life is pretty difficult at the moment. The things your Mum says to you are very hurtful and I can understand that you feel scared and upset. You don't say much about the reasons for making yourself throw up, but I'm guessing maybe its a way of helping you cope or feel better?
You don't say if anyone lives with you, but I wonder if there is somebody else in your family who knows what's happening and how bad it's making you feel? What would happen if your Mum knew?
Throwing up to try and cope is a kind of self harm and something that a lot of young people do when life is hard. If you look on the message boards you can get a lot of support there. You could also talk to one of our counsellors either on the website or on 0800 1111. Sometimes just having someone else to support you can be a big help.
Take care
Sam