Hi thanks for writing to me.
I can see that things are getting on top of you just now and life is quite tough. You do seem to be dealing with a lot of school work and I can understand how hard it is for you. It's good to read that you told your mum about the amount of work your trying to cope with. Hopefully she will have seen things from your point of view.
Although you say you are both coping with your dad's death it seems to me that your mum might not be coping so well. The things your mum said sound really hurtful, and the fact that she was hitting you really worries me. I guess I'm wondering how you feel about what's happened with your mum?
Do any of your teachers know about the pressure you're under with all the course and tuition work? It might be an idea to speak to your form teacher, or any teacher who you get on with, as soon as you can.
You said that you didn't know what to do and it feels like you're stuck. How about talking this over with a ChildLine counsellor?
You can call ChildLine on 0800 1111 for free, at any time. If you prefer you can come and have an online 1-2-1 chat with a counsellor. Just log in to the website.
I really hope you can make contact ChildLine remember you don't have to go through this on your own.
Good luck and take care
Sam