I'm having a bit of an identity crisis right now. I can't fit in. My friends are different, they don't understand me and what I go through. My mum is obsessed about her university placements and her garden, and every conversation we have ends with her telling me about her course or her vegetables. My dad is really grumpy, and when he is in a good mood, it is usually marred by something stupid. My eldest brother is in the process of divorcing his wife, but we haven't heard from him so we hardly ever get to see my six year old nephew. My other brother who is 20 has autism, aspergers syndrome, very mild, but he's rarely in a good mood. He always stays in his bedroom and only comes out to eat and do his chores.
All this is affecting me. I am halfway through my GCSEs, and I'm being pressured by everyone. I'm actually surprised my mum remembers that I have exams.
But what's troubling me is that I feel like I'm not special. When my mum catches up with her family or friends, she's always talking about my dad's new shifts, or her new placement, or my brother's DLA and allowances - but never me. This makes me feel so unimportant and makes me think I have no skills or talents. When I'm older, I want to be a writer, and have started writing stories, but I get no encouragement. I love sketching, but I get no praise for my art. I really have nothing to be proud of, and I try my hardest at everything, but I'm good at nothing.
I don't know what to do.
Hunnyhummer