Hi there
It sounds like things are really difficult for you at the moment because your parents are being very cautious about what contacts you are allowed to have. The punishments they are giving you are also not acceptable.
I guess your parents may be acting with a culturally different perspective here, but really this is not helping or supporting you at all. It is certainly not acceptable to hit a child particularly in the ways that you have described.
You have been incredibly brave already in finding a way to contact ChildLine to talk about what’s happening to you and this is just the first step. I can see that you feel very worried about anyone telling your parents, as you feel this would make things much worse. I want you to know that at ChildLine we would not tell anyone about what you tell us unless you wanted us to.
One way that you could approach your house manager, or anyone else, at school would be to ask them "what would happen if I knew someone who was being hurt by their parents?" That way you could reassure yourself about what would happen if you did tell someone, without giving any details.
The reason I’m thinking it might be a good idea to try to tell someone at school, is that often they will let a young person use the phone or computer to talk to a ChildLine counsellor confidentially. Another option might be if your parents will allow you to go to the library after school where you could use the computer. Would this be possible?
I really do hope you find a way to continue to contact ChildLine so we can help you through this difficult time and help you think about what’s the right way forward for you. What’s happening at the moment is not OK at all. You can phone on 0800 1111 or just come onto the website for an online 1-2-1 chat.
Best wishes,
Sam