Thanks for your letter
I suppose sometimes we can expect a lot from our mums. It's always great when mums are in a good mood and happy. But when things start getting a bit tough and tiring for them they can get a bit grouchy.
Often they can be the person we just don't want to be near or even speak to. I will say though that mum's behaviour of slapping you is not acceptable no matter how moody she is feeling.
The other side to this that mums too can expect a lot from the eldest child in a family and I'm assuming you are? It sounds as though you are a great help and support to your mum. But I don't think moving away is going to solve anything. If anything this is a really dangerous idea to have particularly if you're not very old yourself.
My suggestion would be choose a time when you and mum are alone and be brave and tell her what you are thinking and how she is making you feel. Ask her to tell you how she is feeling and how you can help one another. Maybe you could write it in a letter to her.
If this is too hard to think about doing come and talk to a ChildLine counsellor on 0800 1111 or have a 1-2-1chat online.
The counsellor will listen to what you have to say and together work out what is the best way to support you.
Have a think about this
Take care
Sam