Hi there
It sounds like there is a lot going on for you at the moment and it’s making things really hard for you. Leaving school, whether you go to college or not, is a big change and means there is lots to think about. It’s great that you don’t want to make yourself more stressed and pressured when pregnant, but it also doesn’t have to be all or nothing.
Sounds like you want to talk to your mum and to be able to let her know how your feeling and to it not end up in an argument. What about writing your mum a letter and think about giving it to her at a good time? It's important that you know that if you’re under the age of 18 it is against the law for your mum to kick you out, if she did do that you can phone 999 or ChildLine on 0800 1111 for help.
It can be hard to make a decision with so much happening, these websites have a lot of information on leaving school, pregnancy and what benefits are open to you: TheSite.org, Citizens Advice and Directgov. Having more information might help you work out how you want your future to be.
It can be good to talk things over with people, it can give you a chance to talk about your feelings, thoughts and plans. This is something you could do with a ChildLine counsellor if you wanted to. There is no problem too big or small. The counsellors are friendly and understand the sorts of problems you might be worried about. They will listen to how you feel and help you talk through your options. You can talk to a ChildLine counsellor on the phone 0800 1111, an online 1-2-1 chat or by email through the ChildLine website.
Take care
Sam