Hi there,
I’m really glad you’ve written to me about what is happening to you. You’re doing the right thing talking about it.
I’m concerned that dad is treating you this way and that you are being hit so often and punished in ways that are not acceptable. Your dad is really wrong to be hitting you, it is never your fault that he is like this. When you bought the exercise book you were doing something you needed to for revision but your dad wrongly accused you of lying. Hitting should never be a punishment. You have the right to be safe in your own home and to be free from all types of abuse.
You did the right thing before by telling the police and it sounds like they took it seriously. I'm wondering if you are still in contact with the social worker who helped before? Perhaps you could let them know things are now worse for you at home.
It sounds like you don’t want me to suggest telling someone because it felt worse when you got back home from being in care. However, I'm wondering how your dad can be stopped without you getting help from someone? You deserve to have as much support as you need. I’d encourage you to call 999 anytime your dad threatens to harm you or hurts you.
Do you think you could contact a ChildLine counsellor to talk about this more? ChildLine is confidential so a counsellor won’t tell anyone what you say, unless your life is in immediate danger, or if you want them to tell someone. You can talk to ChildLine for free anytime by calling 0800 1111 (it won’t show on your bill), or by email or 1-2-1 chat.
Take care,
Sam