Okay this is a really long story but im going to try to explain as best as i can.
Im 15 and as far back as i can remember my mum has been violent towards me and my brothers. Most of what i can remember happened when my mum was pregnant with my younger brother, when i was six. When i told someone they said it was just mum's hormones and stress because she was pregnant and i was over reacting.
A few months later when my brother was born, i had accidentally knocked two cups off a shelf and they smashed. I remember her screaming at me, and smashing my head against the microwave. This gave me a black eye, when i went to see my dad that weekend and he asked i told him what happened.
Eventually everything came out and my dad began to get a court case to win custody of me, because he feared of the abuse i was suffering. A long story cut short but my dad won custody. I lived with my dad for a year with my step-mum before she decided she didn't want to be with my dad anymore. My dad then emigrated to Canada and sent me back to my mum.
Social services aren't even aware im living back with my mum. I haven't even had any contact with my dad for five years.
I now have four younger brothers living here with my mum too. Sometimes she gets these moodswings and it causes her to hit out sometimes it can be the slightest thing.
I also think it is emotional abuse too, she will scream in my brothers face, threaten them, swear at them calling them awful names, she does all this to me too and constantly comments on my appearance and puts me down.
Not many of my family see this, my stepdad is pretty bad too but not as bad as my mother. Im not sure if this qualifies as proper abuse as she does let us go to school, makes sure we are well fed and so on.
Im now really scared to tell anyone for fear of them thinking im just making it up, like they did last time. As when i moved back in with my mum they just accepted it as me being a liar. I also don't want to cause any trouble for the family and i fear my little brothers will hate me in the future for taking them away from their family even if they are suffering here.
I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to be somewhere were somebody won't hit or kick or punch and won't tell me im fat ugly or stupid.