Hi there
Thanks for your letter. It sounds like life at home is really difficult for you. You have said your family hates you and you always feel sad and upset and have considered trying to kill yourself. It’s really concerning to hear that you have been feeling so low.
You have told me you have tried talking to your mum in the past but she ignores you and it sounds like that would be really hard for you. Perhaps you could think about writing a letter to your mum to let her know how much this is upsetting you and how you would like things to be different.
You have also said that your dad never talks to you and it feels like he avoids you. Maybe you could ask your mum about that in your letter. Family relationships can be really difficult and it seems like you may be struggling with your brother and sister as well as your parents. Maybe you could share your feelings with a friend or someone else that you trust, sometimes this can help you to cope.
I would encourage you to think about calling ChildLine. The counsellors talk to lots of young people who are having problems getting along with their families. They will listen to you and try to find ways to make things better. You don't have to go through this on your own.
Take care
Sam