Hi there, thanks for getting in touch with me.
Exams can be really stressful times but it sounds like things at home are making it especially difficult for you at the minute. When studying for exams it can be helpful to have somewhere to go where you can concentrate. It sounds as though home isn’t somewhere you could do that right now.
If you’re worried about falling behind in your work, perhaps you could find somewhere else to study? You could partner up with a friend and study with them or perhaps stay for extra time after school.
This of course doesn’t fix things at home – it sounds like you and your mum have a difficult relationship. What you’ve told me about how she hits you and tells you to leave and not come back are both things that are not okay for her to do. No adult should ever hit a child and she is responsible for looking after you until you are 18.
It sounds like she has also made things difficult for you with the rest of the family – which might make you feel as though there’s nobody in your family that you can trust. Who do you feel you can trust the most? If you can find an adult or close friend that you are able to trust, what would it be like if you talked with them about how you’ve been feeling?
You talked about running away and it can sometimes feel like the best thing to do, but it can also be dangerous to do that and it’s important to think carefully about where you would go and what you would need to take with you.
It’s really important that you keep safe and one way of doing that is to phone ChildLine on 0800 1111 – ChildLine counsellors can help you decide what to do next and help to make sure you are okay. Whatever happens ChildLine is here for you to talk to – online or on the phone. ChildLine counsellors are ready and waiting to listen to you and support you as best they can.
I hope you can contact ChildLine again when you feel ready.
Take care
Sam