Hi thanks for writing to me
I can see that what's happened with your parents' divorce has put you in a difficult position. I can also understand how angry and hurt you must be.
It can be really difficult for young people to cope with how adults in their lives behave and it sounds like you've thought really hard about your relationship with your dad.
You've made it clear to me how you feel. I don't know what's going on with your parents, but sometimes parents who've separated can use their children as an excuse to continue the arguments that made them separate in the first place. I guess what I'm saying is that your situation is quite complicated and it sounds like you need someone you can talk things through with.
Perhaps you'd consider calling ChildLine and talk with a counsellor? They will listen to you and help you deal with all the feelings you have.
You can call ChildLine free on 0800 1111 at any time or even have a 1-2-1 chat. ChildLine counsellors talk to many young people with problems such as yours, it does help to talk so please give it a try.
You may even want to think about posting a message on the ChildLine message boards and see if other young people have had similar issues on Father's Day
Take care
Sam