Hello sam, i didnt know what topic to put this in so i hope it is okay...
I didnt know what else to do, so i thought i would email you maybe for some advise or somthing :(
When i was roughly 12/13 i got bullied a bit because people 'asumed' i was gay, & maybe because i just wasnt the typical 'boy'. So i would *gently* cut myself but only enough to see spects of blood because i was scared because i never done it before, and i did it so when i did get called names i could think in my head "hahahaha, my self harm over powers the pain you try to give me" kind of thing :(
now i really regret it because it seemed to be addictive. Over the past few years i have relized i actually am gay, and because of all the bulling i started listening to heavy metal so i started to dress like the part too! so over the past year i got bullied for being the schools 'gay emo' and i get abuse from that quite alot.. and my self harm has become very worse....
i still think that thought "my self harms worse then the pain you give me hahahaa" so the worse i get bullied the worse i self harm. just so i can be in control i guess. all i get called everyday in the stupid dark emo gay boy jack. and i hate it... what should i do :(
..sorry if its too long :((((