Hi there
Thanks for your message. I'm really glad you got in touch, especially as you have to wait to see your counsellor. It sounds like you are feeling sad at the moment and that your life is difficult.
It's often hard to find the right person to be in a relationship with, but it sounds like you are really clear about what kind of person you want to be with and also about your own behaviour and that's a really good thing.
It can sometimes be hard to be a young carer and I wonder if you get any support with this? There are a couple of really good websites you might want to have a look at: www.youngcarers.net and www.youngcarer.com.
Don't forget you can always sign up for a ChildLine account and talk to one of our counsellors online or go on the message boards to get some support from other young people.
I hope this helps.
Take care
Sam