Hi there
It seems from your letter that you don’t really get on well with your mum and you say you feel that you’d like be thousands of miles away from her. You mention that she calls you names or says things to you that are hurtful, and you end up getting upset and crying, and sometimes you end up having panic attacks and feeling like you’ve done something wrong.
Although relationships between parents and children can be difficult or strained at times, feeling like you want to get away from your parents isn’t abnormal or wrong. This especially happens as you grow older and become a young adult. However difficult things might feel between you, no one has a right to call you names and hurt your feelings, including your mum. Have you had a chance to talk to your dad about what’s happening? You mention that your mum phones him up to tell him about you. I wonder how you might feel about talking to him quietly on your own, or even writing a note to him to explain how this has made you feel?
Can I also suggest that you might find it useful to take a look at our Home and family relationships message board where other young people have posted about issues that concern them. It might be worthwhile to have a look at what other young people have to say, or to consider posting your own message if you would like to.
Also, sometimes talking about how you feel with someone can really help to get those difficult feelings off your back. Sometimes it can help to think through ways that you could try to improve the situation you might find yourself in. ChildLine is always here to talk, and you can contact ChildLine on 1-2-1 chat (like MSN), to email us, or to call us anytime on 0800 1111.
Take care
Sam