Hi there, thank you for writing to me. It sounds like you are feeling very low right now and you have taken a brave first step by getting in touch with me.
I am wondering what sort of things you are scared of in school? I'm also very concerned that you think the only way it can end is to kill yourself or runaway.
There are people who can support you - you do not have to go through this alone. Do you have someone in your life that you are close to or who you trust that you might feel comfortable speaking to? You can also get in contact with a ChildLine counsellor, as sharing a problem or a worry is really important, and we will always listen to you. Together with the counsellor you can work out what your worries are and how we can best support you.
Please do get in touch with us at ChildLine by either calling 0800 1111 or you could login to the ChildLine website and have a 1-2-1 chat with a counsellor.
Take care
Sam