Hi, and thanks for writing to me.
It sounds like you’ve got a lot of things going on for you at the moment with mum and her boyfriend having a go at you and saying nasty things; your dad's operation, your mum is going to have one in December, and not getting on well at school. It’s no wonder you feel so angry all the time, you have got so much to deal with and it seems as if you have no one who listens to how you’re feeling and understand what you’re going through, that that must be really hard.
Keeping all this stuff inside is bound to cause anger and anxiety after a while, so you’re doing exactly the right thing to tell me about your feelings because talking to someone you can trust will help you to deal with each problem, rather than waiting for them all to build up.
It sounds like your mum and her boyfriend are not helping you at all. You need their care and support with all this other stuff going on. Does your mum know how you really feel? It might be an idea to write her a letter telling her how upset you are about all that’s going on. That way, you can express yourself to your mum without fear of getting into an argument.
It’s important to have someone to talk to about how you really feel, and I wonder if there is anyone around who you can trust? Maybe a relative, a teacher at school or a counsellor at school?
You can always talk with one of the counsellors at ChildLine either by phone 0800 1111, chat or email. Also, it could help to look at the ChildLine message boards as there are a lot of comments from young people who are going through similar difficulties. You might find it helpful to read through some of these.
Take care,
Sam