Hi there
Thank you for your letter and I'm really glad you decided to write to me. It’s positive that you recognise that you are in need of support and that you are taking steps to address it in the new year. It does sound as if you have had an awful lot to deal with lately.
Sometimes when someone has a mental health illness, like your mum, it can affect the health and well being of others who are close to that person, just as you have mentioned. The fact that your dad has not been around to support you, makes your situation even more difficult.
The fact that you have felt low and suicidal shows just how much what is happening is affecting you and you deserve to have some support. I appreciate that you may be worried that your friends do not understand, but it can be worth remembering that people do not always have to walk in your shoes to be able to listen and support. It could be an idea to think about other trusted adults in your life who could be able to offer you some support and assistance – maybe a relative you can rely on or a teacher you get on well with?
There are also some organisations out there that are aimed at young people just like you, who are experiencing difficult situations and emotions. Check out www.youngminds.org.uk . You may also find it useful to talk to one of our counsellors here at Childline, either by ringing us on 0800 1111 or by having an online 121 chat. This would give you an opportunity to talk through what has been going on for you and how you can access proper support.
Take care
Sam