Hi there
You sound as though you are coping with so much that it is so overwhelming for you, and can appreciate why you say that you are scared. It is important for everyone to have someone to talk to rather than bottle things up and am wondering just who you have right now in your life that will really listen to how you feel?
I appreciate right now you are saying that you do not think that anybody could help you, but how do you know until you give it a try? First of all think about who you would feel comfortable talking to about how you are feeling, this might be a trusted family member, friend, teacher, mentor or other professional involved in your life. Then I guess the next step is to let them know either by writing things down, or talking, talking often helps us make sense of things although you may not feel ready to talk about what is on your mind right now.
Check out www.supportline.org.uk which might have some information you will find useful or perhaps www.samaritans.org.uk. Talking does help make sense of things, and you are very welcome to come and talk to one of our counsellors either online in a 1-2-1 chat or by telephone Tel: 0800 1111 about how you are feeling. Hope this helps.
Take care
Sam