Hi there,
Thank you very much for taking the time to write to me. It sounds like you are feeling really fed up with things right now and struggling to cope. It does sound like you are going through a tough time right now. A common theme throughout your letter was your anger and your behaviour issues at school and home.
You said that things changed when you started going to high school. Maybe you could have a think about what you think it was that caused a change in you finishing junior school and starting high school. I know some people find it helpful to vent anger through physical activities such as running or boxing or different kinds of sports. This may be something you might like to try next time you feel yourself getting angry. Another technique for dealing with anger is taking yourself out of heated situations. Some people also find taking deep breaths and counting to 10 can help. There is more information and tips on how to deal with anger on The Site website that you might find helpful.
You mention that your dad died and that you have a step dad who is seriously ill and can’t help you with your homework. This must be very difficult for you as a young person to be living with an unwell parent. You may like to talk to your mum and step dad about how things are for you right now.
At school you say that you have been spending a lot of time in isolation due to your behaviour and anger. You talk about these teachers who are in the isolation room with you calling your mum most days. You also say that you have a personal counsellor and a mentor. I’m wondering if you have ever thought about talking to your counsellor about what your feeling and going through at the moment? Counsellors are there to offer you help and support and could help you with your behaviour and anger issues.
You may also like to contact ChildLine and talk with a counsellor. You can speak with a counsellor over the phone 08001111 or online in a 1-2-1 chat. ChildLine is always there to help and support you.
Take care
Sam