Hi
Thanks for your e-mail. It seems like you are struggling with your anger at the moment, and how to deal with it. You don’t know the reasons you get so angry with yourself and others but it sounds like it is really frustrating you at the moment. You also mention that it scares you to feel so much anger.
Telling people around you about your anger seems to be something you feel quite unsure about. You say that you try to control your anger, and try not to let it out so others can’t see how you are feeling. However, it sounds like sometimes the anger becomes too strong and you feel like you have to let it out.
It seems like your anger can sometimes be triggered by some of the thoughts you have in your head, which you say is like a voice. You can also get angry when something has happened. Anger is a normal feeling and is something that people express in different ways. But it sounds like you are finding it difficult to manage at the moment.
It sounds like you really want to take some steps to manage your anger in a better way and this is a really positive thing to do. There are lots of different things you can try and some ways will work better for you than others. Sometimes talking about what makes you angry can help you to understand what things make you react in this way.
One thing you could do is talk to one of the counsellors at ChildLine. Some young people find that talking to somebody when they are angry helps to calm them down.
Another thing you might find helpful is to look at the ChildLine message boards, where you will find messages from other young people who may be experiencing similar feelings to yours. You can also post a message yourself with your own experience if you like.
The number for ChildLine is 0800 1111, it is free to call and doesn’t appear on phone bills.
I hope this helps.
Take care
Sam