Hello
Thanks for getting in touch with me. You have experienced so much loss recently. I think you have been very brave to talk about it and share what is worrying you.
When you write about what’s happened since your granda died 5 weeks ago, I can hear how hard it is for you. Losing someone you are close to can make people behave in all sorts of different ways. It sounds like you feel you can’t be yourself at the moment and feel confused by what other people are doing.
It's more important than ever that you get a chance to speak to someone who is there just for you. Someone who perhaps doesn’t feel sad at losing your granda and can really listen to you. Someone who wants to know what it’s like for you.
Finding a way out might take some time, but talking to someone could be a start. Could you try going to your GP with your Mum and finding out what your options are?
Don’t forget you can also get in touch with ChildLine at anytime. You can tell ChildLine anything you want and you can cry if you want to - a counsellor at ChildLine is there to listen.
Take care
Sam