Hi there
I’m really glad you felt that you could write to me about this.
It sounds like this is a time when you are especially missing your nana and I hear that she was very special to you. Christmas can be a time of happiness but it can also be a time when we think a lot about the people who are no longer with us. The “gap” that you feel is because you miss nana and although you can't see her, it seems that she is still in your heart and your head.
I hear you think it might upset mum talking to her but I’m wondering whether mum realizes how difficult this is for you. Sometimes families can help each other by sharing their grief. If you can’t talk to mum, would it help to send her a letter, saying how you feel?
I am concerned that you have been feeling so down and it sounds like doing exams seems like a big task at the moment. You seem to understand that you might benefit from some support.
If you would like, you could always talk to a ChildLine counsellor. A counsellor would listen and not tell you what to do, but help you to explore your feelings and find a way forward. You can do this by ringing for free on 0800 1111, or if you prefer to write, you could log on for a 1-2-1 chat (which works a bit like msn) or send an email.
I do hope you will make contact.
Thanks for being brave enough to write to me.
Take Care
Sam