Hi,
Thank you for your letter. It sounds as though this friend has been really upsetting you. I’m concerned to hear that she was hurting you before and covered your arm in bruises. Nobody is ever allowed to hurt you, what she did was very wrong.
You said that ‘really she is a bully’ and from what you have said she does sounds like she’s using bullying behavior. It’s not right of anybody to call others hurtful names. You said that you feel scared to stand up to her, but it sounds like when you do say something back it makes you feel good because she knows you are not afraid of her.
Often bullies can say threatening things or try to scare someone in order to keep their silence in the hope that they won’t do anything to stop the bullying, that way they can continue to get away with it.
You might want to have a think about telling a teacher or an adult that you trust about what’s happening. Bullying diaries can often be a good way of keeping track of what’s going on and how it's making you feel. In a bullying diary you can make a note of what happens, when it happens and who does it and how it makes you feel. Then you can always show your diary to an adult that might be able to help put a stop to the bullying.
It sounds like you no longer want to be friends with this person. I’m wondering what you would like to happen. This is something you could talk about with a counsellor.
You are welcome to come and talk to a ChildLine counsellor at anytime. They are there to listen and support you. That way you can have a 1-2-1 chat about what’s happening without having to wait for a reply and you and the counsellor can talk together about what you might like to do next.
Hope this helps. Take care,
Sam