Hi there
Thanks for your letter. Firstly I would like to say that it seems from your letter that you have lots going on both at home and at school and I think that it shows great courage to find a way to tell me how you are really feeling right now. I'm really glad you decided to write to me.
You say that you have been experiencing bullying at school for some time now and by some of the examples of what you have had done to you and the continuous hurtful things said to you, sounds as if it is really difficult to keep a brave face on it.
No - one deserves to be treated in this way by anyone and it really concerns me that you feel so lonely and sad at school. Your school has a responsibility to keep you safe whilst you are there and I would encourage you to take some time to think if there is just one teacher or maybe an older student [mentor] who you might feel you can talk to again about what is happening for you both at home and at school.
You have mentioned that you have lost your Uncle and your Guinea Pig, and your Grandad has been poorly as well as your Mum being unwell - it sounds like that is a great deal for you to cope with.
You might also like to consider getting some extra support from a ChildLine counsellor either through online chat or by email via the ChildLine website, or if you would prefer to call us on 0800 1111 which is a free call number from most phones including mobiles. It can be useful sometimes to have a look at the Message Board on our website too, as it often has messages from other young people who have often had similar experiences.
It is a brave step that you have taken to tell me about considering suicide a few times and I am concerned to hear that you can feel like this sometimes. Again I would like to say to you that there is always someone from ChildLine who is here to listen to you at anytime that you feel you would like to talk to someone.
Take care
Sam