Hi there
Thank you for your letter. It sounds as though you are having a really difficult time at the minute and that you are very confused about what you should do. I think you are right about being bullied, and I would be very concerns about your safety around your brother’s friends, as what is happening to you sounds like physical abuse.
It sounds as though your brother’s friends know what they are doing is wrong, as they only act this way when your brother isn’t there. It can be scary thinking about telling your brother what is happening when you are afraid he won’t believe you. Sometimes it can be less scary to write down our feelings rather than say them out loud; perhaps you could write him a letter about what is happening.
You have a right to feel safe where you live and there are other people who would be able to help you. Social Services and the Police have a responsibility to look after you and ensure you are free from harm. You mention you don’t have much family and can’t live with your parents, so it might involve finding you somewhere to live outside of your family where there is a responsible adult who can care for you and keep you safe. If you feel in immediate danger it is important that you call 999 and speak to the Police.
ChildLine could help you to seek help from Social Services, and are here 24 hours a day, 7 days a week for you to talk about how you are feeling. You can talk to a ChildLine counsellor by phone on 0800 1111, or using online chat.
Take Care
Sam