Hi there
Thank you for your letter you’ve been really brave to write in. It sounds like there is a lot going on for you and it’s perhaps feeling like too much at the moment so it’s really good that you’ve written to get some support.
It sounds like the bullying that’s happening at school is really upsetting you. No one has the right to bully and I can hear that it’s really affecting you if you’re crying for hours when you get home.
I’m wondering whether a teacher or anyone like that at school knows about what’s happening? If not, maybe you could think about whether there is a teacher who you trust and may like to tell. It’s up to you if you want to talk to them about it but all schools should try to stop bullying when they know that it’s happening. Most schools have something called an anti-bullying policy, these are like rules that should be followed when teachers hear that bullying is taking place. If talking to your teacher is something that you think may be hard to do then perhaps writing things down in a letter and maybe keeping a diary of what’s happening to show him or her may be a good idea.
There are some other ideas and information about bullying in the Explore section, where other young people have put up messages about their experiences and advice.
It also sounds like you’re finding things tough at home at the moment and that you feel that maybe things have changed between you and your mum with her new boyfriend now around. I’m not sure what your relationship was like with your mum before this and whether you feel able to talk to her or not about how you’re feeling and whether you feel that would be something that could change anything.
I’m concerned that you say that your mum has a drink problem and one of your mum’s ex-boyfriends strangled your brother. I want you to know that if you ever feel that you or your brother or anyone is in danger you can call 999 for the police because they are there to protect you.
It sounds like it’s taken you a lot of courage to write this letter. You may not feel ready or able to do some of the things I've suggested in this letter and that’s ok. A ChildLine Counsellor is always here if you want to talk more about what’s going on and how you’re feeling, to support you in any way that they can. There are several ways to do this; you can call on 0800 1111 (all calls are free and don’t show up on the bill) or sign up for an account and use online 1-2-1 chat (it works a bit like MSN messenger).
Take care,
Sam