Hi, thanks for your letter and for telling me how you're feeling. Bullying is very wrong and this should not be happening to you. It seems as though you have tried your best to get help without success.
I was just wondering where this bullying is taking place - is it happening at home, school or college? Being bullied can really change the way we feel about ourselves - it can make someone lose confidence and have feelings of sadness or depression.
Your thoughts of wanting to run away do worry me though as this is not a safe option. Is there anyone you might feel comfortable speaking to about how you're feeling? Running away can leave you in a more difficult and dangerous situation. Where would you go? How would you keep safe? How would you pay for food? How would you stay warm?
It’s hard for me to know what you have already tried so perhaps you could think about making contact with a ChildLine counsellor to talk all of this through. They will listen to what you tell them and help you to think about safe options. You can do this by phoning 0800 1111 or by loging into the website and having a 1-2-1 chat.
To find out more information about bullying check out the ChildLine Explore section - this has advice about bullying at home and school.
Good luck and please get in touch with ChildLine
Sam