Hi there
Thank you for sending your letter to me.
It’s understandable that the bullying at school over the past two years has had a big impact on you. This is a lot for you to have coped with on your own and I’m really glad that you’ve had the courage to contact ChildLine to explain what has been happening.
I’m concerned that things became so overwhelming for you that you considered suicide, and that you finished that year at school feeling broken and lonely.
I imagine it was very frustrating when you told your teachers but the bullying continued. All schools have an anti-bulllying policy. If you check your own school's anti-bullying policy, it will show you what your school should do to protect you and keep you safe.
The bullying is not your fault and no one deserves to be bullied. The boy spent a huge amount of his time thinking of different ways to hurt you and put you down in front of everyone. When somebody bullies you about the way you look, it says more about them than it does you. Sometimes when people feel insecure, they try and deflect attention away from themselves by criticising others. It’s understandable that you felt so upset and isolated but, remember, just because he repeatedly said it, does not mean that it is true. Keep it in mind - you are the better person.
I wonder if there is anyone in your family or that you feel close to, that are aware of how you’re feeling?
If you like, you can always come and talk to a counsellor. We will be able to get a better understanding of how things are for you and begin to think of ways that you can support yourself.
There are different ways to contact ChildLine, you can ring 0800 1111 (calls are free and confidential) have a 1-2-1 chat online (similar to MSN) or send an email.
It may also be helpful to look at the ChildLine message boards as it can be useful to read posts from other young people in similar situations.
Take care
Sam